On Owning Up
I had a conversation with someone close to me that got me offended recently. For me, it wasn’t so much about the offence but more about how they were taking it lol. You know when you’re telling your friend something that hurts and they’re laughing about it till they realise it’s serious.
I’ve had times in the past where I did wrong and refused to acknowledge it. Haven’t we all? But that’s not the point.
SEE ALSO: ANGER IS NEVER THE FIRST EMOTION
Today, I’m reminded that there’s always room for improvement. We’re always presented with more opportunities to do better. They show up before us. God sends people our way. Those opportunities come consciously or unconsciously. Planned by us. Unplanned because it’s life!
I’m training myself to own up to my actions, good and bad. Or so it might seem(context). It helps me know what to do and what not to going forward.
I just realized that I’m getting better at apologizing quickly even when I might not have to. It’s one of the hardest things ever. That’s the whole idea, no? Connection >>> Being Right.
I know and have learnt that everyone has a choice to make and I can always control my own actions.
I want to always stay responsible for my actions and choices but be able to call others out to do the same. I don’t want my peace dependent on another’s action but I also want to be able to state my displeasure when/if necessary. Never assuming+encouraging growth. So when I’m offended, it’s my choice to let go. But it’s theirs to own up and decide to change.
It’s true that they might not change but I’m satisfied knowing I have taken away the ability you have by forgiving.
So if you see me giving excuses, call me out on it. If I see you doing the same, I will too. Remind me if you have the opportunity to. It’s the kind of life I’m looking to build. The kind of person I want to be. I’m willing to give it what it takes no matter how I feel.
Here’s to constantly showing up and creating something every day.
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